is it just me, or does the population of america seem to be running more and more to just plain old evil these days? what the fuck happened? no one cares anymore, no one is willing to stick their neck out for one another, everyone seems filled with a nameless fear about relationships, friendships,family, money,caring, being seen caring, everything good seems to be taken as weakness, compasion seems to set you up for a fall, its like hanging a sign around your neck that says " SUCKER" trust is just a tool for manipulation, love is aobut money and material things, everything is going down the shitter all over the states, and although i havent seen sign of it elsewhere im not what youd call a globetrotter, but i have my suspicions. and thats another thing, suspicion, its everywhere, and about everything. was it always like this? i dont remember it being so bad before the ninieties, it was there, but in its infancy it seems. now its eveerywhere. where is this all leading to? and how do i get out? where is there a place where people care about one another in a compassionate way and where love doesnt automatically bring up fear of loss and suspicion. i want out of this madhouse. i want to be around loving kind and generous people that treat one another with respect and caring and general good feeling, does this place exist? any other country? ANYWHERE? im quickly seeing the only way out as a hermitage in the desert, or someplace in the arctic, . is this the only way to be left alone by the evil people?